How do you react when a parent who hurt you beyond all belief dies? I hate mother Felixia for abandoning us, for fleeing into a black hole and just leaving me there. For turning our family into a fractured pane of glass, leaving my mother to become the monster she is now. I hate them both, but I blame the one who left most of all. And yet...I can't help but cry. 17 years she spent with me, loving me. Those 17 years, I remember as the happiest times of my life, filled with joy and love. We were so happy back then. Just a happy family, two mothers and set of children. I already miss her so much more now that I know she's never coming back...it's such a mix of anger and sadness. Vibe for tonight... https://youtu.be/923xVDMm7xA