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What the hell happened yesterday?? Did someone die or something??

As sad as it is to hear that Markus died, there were others that died that have hit just as hard for those that knew them. Among those names that fell yesterday in the Bay was a friend of mine, Abigail. I'm not great with words, but I really wish we'd talked more often. As it is, you've left me with a valuable gift, and I'm sad I won't get to have another dumpling. We met holding each other together during this war. You said you'd be okay, despite having a giant hole in your stomach. Fucking brave liar, you are. The silly times we shared, in the alleyway in the Meatrack or looking down on the planet, I'll never forget. And I'll fight for you. And for everyone else. Rest up, Abigail. You earned it.

Sucks waking up and still mentally recovering and this is how I found out Markus passed away... I didn't know him that well compared to anybody else, but he seemed like a cool choom to have in your corner. As one who lost people close to me in combat before coming to Zaphira, I offer my condolences to everyone affected by his passing. Rest in peace, Markus. Even if we didn't talk too much, I considered you a choom.

Just woke up, reading all these sad posts. Ngl, got me cryin, Rest in Peace, didn’t know yall personally but I’m sure you all were important!! ✨ Nya 🐱

Hello people on my magical brick, my first post shall be my battle with a big burger.

I always knew I'd win our little game in the end, but I always hoped it wouldn't happen this soon. I'll remember you, Markus. Love ya, buddy. <3 Guppy :3

Snowscale, Markus, I'll keep the bay going for you two.

There are days when I feel the shame, My mind can't help but self blame, It burns me up like a roaring flame, Digs a hole to mark its claim. It hangs my mind within its frame, Taunts me like some big game, I can't promise to always stay the same, But I'll respond when you call my name.

I thought I’d already imagined and seen the worst of any war that could be offered. This isn’t my first war, nor my last. In my heart, I’m ready to accept the death of the ones I love. I see her fighting beside me, I don’t want to worry. Each girl I’ve chosen to love is a unique doubt in my mind, a gamble I yearn to win every night. That their warmth will still be there, and death hasn’t claimed a piece of my heart. All it takes is one moment to shatter that veil, bring you back to the forefront of realizing that at any moment, the ones you kissed and hugged this morning are just gone. That you’ll spend the rest of your life with an emptiness in your heart. And while today my wife came back to me, a lot of people I called friend and who I had just met didn’t. And the fear creeps in. Death feeds well on chaos. But I also have to convince myself that I must fight on, that their deaths meant more than fear. That any of this has to mean more. But I’m terrified of losing the people I love. I just can’t express that fear in a way most people understand. I don’t talk about it all that well. I suck at these kinds of conversations. I instead try to drown it out; that it’s not important, that I’m inconveniencing people by talking about it, or that they don’t want to deal with my fear. Now, I’m just trying to find ways to convince myself that there is an ending where all those beautiful eyes I stare into and those soft hugs I’ve come to adore so much will still be there when this is all over. https://youtu.be/923xVDMm7xA?is=FrYs1TD7-1Hz4I3p

You've helped me in many ways. Always someone I could rely on. One of the very few I would see as family. Thank you so much for working with me in the past, being there, giving me a new home and making me want to be a medic again ...and don't worry, I forgive you for shoving me in the oven. Please rest easy Markus and say hi to Jasmine and Charr to me if you end up meeting them on the other side.

REST IN PEACE MARKUS, YOU KNEW THE REAL ME LIKE ONLY ANOTHER SCHITZOPHRENIC COULD. I'LL MAKE THEM HURT, I'LL DO IT DON'T TEST ME.

I feel like I only just started to get along with him like a brother. I know he saw me something like family but I was too afraid to fully reciprocate that kind of love, I'm sorry I never fully embraced it. You could never see how much you positively impacted everyone around you. You had an idea but you seem scared about how much you've grown on others. Maybe you have a better perspective now...? Hopefully it isn't so scary from wherever you are standing now. I think a lot of people hope they can leave even a speck of positivity behind and you, brother have gone above and beyond. More than that, you inspired them all, be proud.

I met a shadow spirit and the incarnation of void and darkness today ^v^

I need to get busy

Most comfortable pillow anyone can have is their loved one, Mi Mango is the best pillow for me. Mayhaps I can be her pillow too more often. 💛

🌻 You were an amazing man. And always helping people. You always made sure that they were protected. And you definitely did a good job at it. Plus you were always so good at making me smile. I will miss you so much Markus. Thank you for loving Felix, your beautiful daughter, and myself like you did.

Sold a guy PCP, he then proceeded to try and rob a bitch in front of like, 12 people. Anyways, he died, common Foxtec L

Look, I’m probably going to get some strong reactions. Especially since I’m not there personally, but you have to go up to them if you want them to fuck off. They’re going to keep coming to the places you love and kill the people you care about unless you blow a hole through the bottom and take the fight to them. Show them that they are not untouchable and that Zaphira can hit back. This war will not be won if you don’t. I’ll see if I can get over there one of these days. My condolences

I have no idea what I can offer those of you who lost loved ones in this war. Anything I could provide feels... Petty. Like a spit in the face. I know. I lost one of my best friends too. Her soulless eyes stared up at me, not judging. Not begging. Just vacant. Hollow. They've taken what's precious to us, and laughed doing it. Then they took more. So fuck it. You need something from me, my DMs are open. Ill give whatever I can to whoever needs it. Least I can do. Stand strong, Zaphira. You're not alone.