Loss is one of those things that is probably the hardest to push through in this life. So, don't worry to hard about how long it takes. Just.. Don't drown in it though, okay... Remember, you aren't alone. I can only give my condolences and wish I knew them better. Just know from what I was able to see, they fought tooth and nail for you. No matter what happens, never fear the fall. The Bay still stands.